Rape

Now she lives on
But hasnt moved on at all
She still has vivid nightmares
Nightmares of that day
She dwells in it
Hoping one day it will fade from her mind
But it wont
She wishes she could forget
But she cant
She wishes it never happened
But it did
She will forever be a victim of...
Rape...

Sweet Annabelle

Sweet, sweet Annabelle
lying on the floor
crying
next to her mother
shaking...

Sweet, sweet Annabelle
covered from head to toe
wondering if this really happened
scared
her heart beating rapidly
drenched in blood...

Sweet, sweet Annabelle
committeded murder that night
unmindfully killed her only family
horrified
holding the blade that stabbed her mother
drenched in blood

Sweet, sweet Annabelle...
wasn't so sweet

Nothing Changes

Every day is the same
Nothing changes
Her past is screwed up
Her future is not at all promising
But that's because everything is holding her back
She is afraid of not being accepted
She is afraid people will judge her
So she never tells...
She never tells them what has happened
What she has done, what she is doing
She fears rejection
She's terrified of that judgemental look that she has become accustomed to
So she sits in class every day
Hoping someone will take an interest in what she has to say and in her
But...
Evevry day is the same
Nothing changes...

Does it matter...?

Does it matter?...
Does it matter that you are the reason I cry myself to sleep?
Does it matter that I keep your picture by my bed?
Does it matter that you still haunt my sweetest nightmares?
Does it matter?...
Does it matter that I cant get you out of my mind?
Does it matter that you stole my heart?
Does it matter that every promised you made captured my  breath?
Does it matter?...
Does it matter that you held my eternal soul?
Does it matter that you were the one I trusted?
Does it matter that the even thought of you brings me to tears?
Does it matter..?
Does it matter that I sold my soul to someone who wont love me back....?
Does it matter....if i die?